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Hi!This is my first entry and if you're curious this will be a great entry to start reading with. "blank 18" here it goes..

A couple of weeks ago, i finished my 2ND quarterly chemotherapy and i was told that i have to change my doctor next year. I am no longer in pediatrics doctors hands and I was stuck at the moment, puzzled to be exact wondering why. Then, I realized I'm not a baby anymore though i am still the princess of my own ha ha. I can't believe 2008 will end soon, another year will be gone and another one will come. At first, it didn't make sense, living 17 years of my life not knowing the essence of age and now i am hesitating to add a number. Now, i understand.

I am the youngest and only daughter of my parents, so i guess that makes me a valid princess LOL. I am sweet, caring and loving, well at least i think so. That's why I'm used to people treating me like I'm still a child or like their little sister and maybe that's what i wanted to feel too. It's the first time that i get nervous just thinking of my upcoming natal day.

18 is the age number where debutante's celebrate. I don't know if its worldwide but here, it is on that age. Others, celebrate it in a grand debutante ball but i don't need that. I think for me just celebrate it with my loved ones will be great. And gifts don't matter, greetings will do just fine but if your too shy to speak up flowers will do ha ha. I am not a lady-like girl, like every debutante or whatever your thinking. I am just a girl but not your ordinary girl. I know I've always been a child-like attitude but i guess it is natural for me being the youngest. Although, I do act like an adult sometimes, in terms of reality check, like what real friends do, and in decision-making i know i made a difference.

I remembered reading something in the net. It says "We do not stop playing because we are old;We grow old because we stop playing."

WOW!Can you dig it?ha ha It's right though. Life is a game and we should never stop playing it because it's the game that still goes on and on even when you give up on it. But why give up, when you can finish the game right?

Anyway, i think finding a humor everyday is the key on staying young. Being happy with your loved ones and achieving success is second. Having a dream is the last. And we should never loose our dream, when you loose your dream you die. I just realized that a lot of people die but still walking around. So, never let your dream die and still you can see that your walking ha ha.

A month from now, i am turning 18. What's the feeling? Well, there's a part of me that is scared, happy, not excited but thrilled to top it all sad 'coz i know i can never be 17 anymore. But i know adding a year older doesn't take any talent or ability. Anybody can grow older. But the idea is to grow up by always finding an opportunity in change. Have no regrets.

Why blank 18? Well, it's because i will start at a blank slate. I remembered myself saying to a friend that in any year we should be fruitful. I've been through a lot this year and just what like God promises , He promised a safe landing, not a calm passage. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. So, I'm going to live it up, be more spontaneous and enjoy more the journey. I understand, that being 18 is where i will start to take more responsibility and take it seriously. I know age doesnt really matter but i wake my mind up that this is an opportunity to be thankful again, learn more, and act mature. Remember, "growing older is mandatory:growing up is optional"

HAPPY ADVANCE 18Th BIRTHDAY CRAZYREDJ=)