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It's Christmas my beloved friends. Here i am, can't sleep can't eat and nope i am not in loved ha ha i am not just in the mood. wHAaat? not in the mood?Yeah, you know mood swings strikes again and no words can explain what, how and why I'm feeling this.

Lately, just to catch up with me, we had our pinning and dedication ceremony and boy we made history DECEMBER 15, '08! Making this day not a big deal for me but afterwards i can hear in my head what the speaker told us about the "treasured chest" making me realized it was a big deal ha ha and i was so wrong but i had fun.

The MedTech Society had a Christmas Party. As usual, all year gathered and we were like coping up with the juniors, the interns, and the freshmans. There is no program prepared exactly, but it was successful just winging it.

The day after, all sophomores went to RHU for community duty. We had our orientation and they toured us in the center. I did realized it before but to tell you honestly the feeling is different. PRESSURE is ON that's all i remember. Anyway, a challenge is a challenge so, keep it coming. I love taking responsibility and that is why i take this course anyway. Still, i cant wait for the next duty.

The RG also planned a party and boy we had a blast. Composed of Cassie, Shell, Tin, Jas, Cindy, Marissa and Me with the PT namely, Jarvis, JC,PJ, Paul, and Arth. Each of us brought different foods to share then eat. We also had our own games and we were like silly kids playing around. After filling our stomachs until it hurts because of the outrageous laughs we made each everyone content and very happy. But it didn't stop there, we went to each house bringing a car and a driver. Huh!Joyride?Well, sort of. Almost a perfect day=)

Vacation started and first on the list of my schedule is the concert. We are not actually complete because Cindy and jas had their own plans and suddenly Marissa got a fever so the four of us left went there. It was a choir concert and one of our professor is a member so he ask us a little favor. Cassie take over the video and i am in the camera taking pictures. It turned out to be a good concert, it made us laugh ha ha and we really had fun spending the experience, it made us feel that others can count on us and that we are trustworthy students. Ending the day sleeping at Cassie's house.

I actually started a few minutes before Christmas and now it's around 1 am in the morning. Still not sleepy and we kinda stop eating noche buena together like a couple of years ago but we do have foods and we are all here together. I now understand that Christmas is for kids, i am still a kid though but the excitement of Christmas Holidays were gone. I don't know, maybe because last year i realized that Christmas doesn't make everybody happy, i experienced last year Christmas Blues because of what had happened to me being sick and all. I realized that some people experienced it the same way i did, others were worst but i don't feel the same way now 'coz I'm lucky enough to have gone through everything and still facing it courageously.

I don't know exactly how to end this entry, i was actually watching t.v while blogging then I'm also online chatting with Cassie. I remembered, one time we were ask by our professor to make an essay about our happiest day or experience. Many of my classmates already knew what to write and started writing. I was like what?And i knew i had to start also before the time given runs out but i cant think of a single idea. I tried to remember everything in my knuckle head but boom nothing. Then i started looking at my friends (RG), i sigh and smile then start to write. In the essay i write " i thought that my life was over after knowing that i have a rare disease but after i was diagnosed, left the hospital, rest a while in the house, coming back to the school everyday is a happy day because i got to spend time with my friends." I didn't finish the essay though 'coz i run out of time but i was smiling to my professor when i submit it to her. Then she smiles back wondering.

I know that only God knows what exactly i am feeling. The feeling of a patient like me. As i have said, mood swings strikes again. I know it's bad but i cant help the feeling to be impatient, bossy, and very straight forward. Yes, indeed i am guilty and I'm trying to change. But sometimes, the one whose around me needs to change first so i can be understood. I don't know if i am right to say that you cant blame me because i am sick but how am i supposed to do?This disease will be forever in me and i am fighting for it.I need a lot of understanding because my day depends on my body system.

Have a Blessed Merry Christmas!!

Quote to share:

"if opportunity doesn't knock on your window; then build a door"